Holder of hearts;

hearts change, everyday.

work was inspiring today. im guessing it had something to do with the new trainee who just joined our group. my other guess would be when people actually started coming up to the team to ask questions about the functionality of the new system.

i was so engrossed trying to complete this huge fund, that the minute it was time to go home, i rushed out, excited to be heading to the garden.

i wasn't going to allow myself to be sucked into the system. moving from building to another building. level to level. my mind needed fresh air. it needed nature. it needed a reminder that it wasn't made only, and only for this world. it was supposed to prepare itself for the other world - that permanency.

and as i lay down on my back with my eyes shut, i threw away every single thought that came my way and focused on You, on my weakness, my pain, my strengths, and my joys.

i complained, i prayed and requested strength. and i know praying for strength only means a bigger test is coming my way.

ya Muhaymn, i am certain that You'll carry me through this.

wallahualam.