ended it with a bang

which i did, alhamdulillah. although disappointed with one , the remaining was better than expected. there is nothing more i could ask for in this world then to hear how happy my parents were. although, there are many more to come, i pray for everything to go much better in the coming semester and the strive to be better day by day is getting stronger.

it counts to put every effort. it also counts to do everything with an open mind and an honest heart. it counts to always be patient towards your surroundings, and to learn to accept defeat and learn to get up again after falling. i may fall again for the umpteenth time, but i have mastered numerous ways of getting back up, and therefore i am not scared.

i learned that not everyone will be happy to see you get back up. not everyone will be as supportive as your parents and best friend congratulating your success for your hard work, but i've learned it all. and i know there are many more to be learnt. i believe when we dont always cramp our minds about what people will think of us, once we set free of all external factors or perception of others towards us, once we learn how to control our own feelings and our own vision of lives, only then will it come to you.

i am aware, and i am not dumb. i may act foolish or absent-minded but only because i always choose to not waste my time addressing the unnecessaries. i know whats worth fighting for and what isn't. i've got battle wounds from that. everything else is temporary when you've got your eyes on your goal.

i learned that if i did not like a particular situation, it is only a matter of the mind. running away does not solve anything. in fact, it only adds on more unnecessary pressure. so i make use of whats here, find love to wherever possible, and visioned myself beyond everything else.

i learned that hard work will will only be hard work if it is being tested. ive learned not to be complacent, ive learned to always consider the 'what if's as much as i can, and face my fears regardless of how tough they may seem. i've learned that having a mission gets you far, but discipline gets you further, and when it comes to success, i should bow to no one else's way but my own. i learned that 'playing it safe' or 'good enough' should not be used, but 'dare to strive' and being 'great' is what it is all about.

most importantly, ive learned that you will never learn to be happy for others truly, until you learned the art of being happy for yourself.

ive made peace with the bitter hearted. they may remain bitter however long they wish, but i am not one of them who wishes well in reality but condemns within. its unhealthy, it eats you up, and it makes you ugly. i wish not to be dragged, but help will always be made available.

only the unique would dare to go against stereotypes, only those with confidence would dare to take up challenges, only with the clearest of intentions would be able to get through with the help of Him.

my baby nissy and fellow london-ers have graduated with flying colors, and i am so proud with each and every one of them. it feels like it was yesterday we shared the same canteen, ate the same french fries and ran on the same school field.

all is well :) im loving every bit of the moment. now lets work harder !