cerita 1ST july

my best friend came. her name is filzah. and if you have been a follower since my early blogging days, she aint no alien. she's my other half, the better of me. the one friend that makes me a billionaire because of her friendship.

filzah and i go way back. since our primary days and through high school. it wasnt until we both reached 16 that we became close. probably not the ordinary ' i've-known-her-all-my-life kind of best friend ' , but she knew me during the toughest points of my life, and we sticked through ever since. boy am i such a lucky girl.

i don't know how best friends should meet. you know how people always have a fantasy or a perfect romantic vision of how they should meet their partner.but best friends. how should best friends start?

mine was perfectly random. they say talking to a stranger usually helps, im not sure if it was because they didnt care or was it because it wouldn't leave any effect on anyone when you pour it out, however so, the stranger that i decided to pour my heart out to decided to not be a stranger ever since. and ...well it all started from then on.

we have routines that we dont normally do with any other. like making new year's resolutions every year, writing them on a piece of paper, and exchanging them for the other to strike out when one of us fulfills it. from ice cream dates to park dates, we have conversations that we dont do with any other, know each other's mood swings, what to say, what not to say, stuffs like that.

i place her high in my life, she cushions my fall. she has a voice of an angel, lullabys me to sleep in between breaks back in high school. the one person i'd instantly cry when i see her crying. the one i feel most protective and obsessive of, the one person i'd shout out loud and say ' MINE ' when anyone else tries to grab her away. the one person i'd climb a mountain for for all the things she's done for me. the one person who tells me to be patient and stay calm when all h breaks loose.

she's the definition of all best friend oath thingy majig that girls do during high school. except, i have one. and i only need one, and have always been comfortable with just one and have never been comfortable of calling any other a 'best friend' unless i really mean it.

geddit?

so part of the new year resolution was to come over, and visit me. and out of all the people who kept on saying , ' weh nanti aku datang tempat kau, bawak aku jalan2 tau, ' it was this very one girl's words that i kept closest to heart. cos i knew everytime she says something, she means it. and she means it well.

thank you for coming and leaving your footprints in my room, my living room, in my unit, my uni and all over adelaide. my everydays are filled imagining you walking by my side telling me to hold on a little stronger and a little longer onto things.

because if it weren't for you, i wouldn't know how having a best friend would feel like. without you, i wouldn't be able to differentiate the types of friends i have around me.

i know you're the only person who takes me as i am, who doesn't judge me on my past, my present nor my future. you're irreplacable, have i not typed enough ?

thank you for making us work. for making things work. and for loving me as i am.

because i can only fit one you in my heart and i stopped searching for any better ever since. i love you best friend !

so there you go, now you can sleep. i just needed the right time, the right mood and the right words to post this up for you. its 3:43, skype sesh almost over. goodnight and ill talk to you soonish !

-your girl.