it gets cold

i tell myself everyday without fail, the one thing that i got to do once i reach home after work, is catch up on my sleep. but here i am, typing away at 11:38pm malaysian time, when i really should be sleeping.

it is, indeed a big deal for me to spend half a second of my life typing out 'malaysian time' because in a few weeks time, it wont be in 'malaysian time' for the next 10 months or so.

well you got that right, my summer is coming to an end.

3 months of home has been bliss. though it took a few unexpected adjustments in the beginning of it, it is all good now, comfortable, and like every other time, i'm forced to be out of the comfort zone once again and face even a bigger world out there on my own.

i dont really make myself sit and think about adelaide in a few weeks time. honestly, i just want to believe that a-few-weeks-time will take years to roll over, and i'm taking my sweet time enjoying home, the people that i let surround myself, and of course, the major contributor of my weight gain - glorious food.

if it was up to me, i would rather be here, home, with real people and real love. it sucks thinking that i'm a year older now, and Lord have mercy on me, i'm no longer a teenager. i just realized that two days ago, my age does not end with a 'teen' but a 'ty' and that makes me ...i shall not say the word.

sigh.

this time, its going to be harder than the first time.

and i have no idea how im going to do this all over again.