i hope everyone is having a blessed Ramadhan so far. some are saying this year by far is the weirdest ramadhan for them, as no mosques and gatherings are allowed everywhere due to social restrictions. we're still deep in this pandemic. here, in australia, things are looking a lot better. most restrictions will be lifted except for travelling in the future. i am both happy and anxious. they talk about being cautious of a second wave hitting us. i pray everyone will be kept safe and healthy during this challenging time as we navigate towards this new normal we're living.
i say im in abit of a mixed feeling for this ramadhan, as honestly, it isnt much of a difference for me - socially. azhar and i have always been having tarawihs at home ever since we had the boys. only last year he started going to tarawih for some nights with Hamza. it still has and always been just us during ramadhan. i miss spending it with family i guess, but its been so long ever since we last did that considering my side of the family are all still very much busy working and into each others lives. one huge blessing so far is seeing our malaysian family and friends actually experiencing ramadhan at home by themselves this year. i felt like it was such a gift for everyone. to be able to finally have a solid excuse to stay home and enjoy each others company. my mom has started cooking again and i can only imagine what a joy it has been for dad to be able to have her home with him. of course everyone has their moments haha.
what i do enjoy this year so much is the ability to fast again. ive succesfully weaned Umar off breastfeeding which was challenging but alhamduillah i knew it would happen. and whilst he hasnt been responding to any sort of milk substitute well ( hes already 2.5 yo ) im not fussed about it as he eats so well alhamdulillah. i am also very much enjoying the peace and quiet in the night time and early mornings. being able to fully concentrate on tarawih and morning prayers has been something ive missed dearly. every ramadhan before this (since kids) ive always felt like such a failure. like ramadhan wasn't special anymore for me. i couldnt fast properly, i couldnt pray in peace, i couldnt read the quran without falling asleep in the middle of it, i was constantly exhausted with mothering these kids, and im feeling so grateful this year alhamdulillah, despite the circumstances, im grateful.
my family and i are currently out of east of australia and residing in the west side. we were supposed to be on our way to the UK for Azhar's work transfer, but as we plan, Allah is the Best of Planners. When we arrived Perth, all international borders were shut. so now, with the situation, we are without any of our household items. they were all packed and stored in Syd before our flight. supposedly making their way to the UK too. Alhamdulillah for this setback, we're currently renting an airbnb, and it has been a good month plus here with the kids. i must say, with al the moving we've made across australia, Perth is so far my most favourite. it reminds me so much of Adelaide, but a bigger, Adelaide. also the fact that its so close to Malaysia ( only 4hr plus flight time ) makes it more convenient and attractive for me.
anyway that was it for now. i had other things to type out but the kids came running in the kitchen and i lost my train of thoughts. hehe. til then !
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