grow

i remember way back then, i used to wake up for Suhoor, and contemplate on whether to continue sleeping, or stay awake til sunrise. most of the time, id end up sleeping. i always felt guilty sleeping right after eating, i gave no time for digestion. i slept anyway.

nowadays, i find myself wide awake more often. i find sleeping early always a good thing, i end up waking as early as 4am, or like today, 3ish am, and not being able to sleep back again. i didn't cook last night, so i got out of bed and made fried rice for my brother and i. i never thought id admit this, but it definitely feels good to be able to look after someone. to clean, to cook, to prepare. it gives me a different joy in comparison to financial reconciliations. well hello, domestic zyra at your service.

i signed my life away a few days back to a few years of chartered accountancy. im anxious excited. more excited than anxious but im thrilled to be given the opportunity to study yet again. a different feeling altogether, finally an education self paid. one of the biggest joy of being in the workforce is the ability to not burden the ka-ching of moms and pops. i've just started, but my dear self deserves a pat in the back for the effort.

good girl.

i love hearing that. it reminds me of mum and dad when i was young. every time i did something that made them proud, they'd clap their hands with excitement and give me , probably the world's longest,

' gooooooodddd girrrrrllllllll... '

followed by sloppy kisses on my cheeks. it has always motivated me to keep doing the things i do knowing it made them happy.

kids should be motivated that way. when they know they're doing something good - they'll repeat them. even better, they stick to doing that. developing positive habits. i guess its important in the upbringing of children to be shown affection, compassion, empathy, motivation, humility. all the core of deep, positive values are important reflection when they grow.

i know my kids are getting all the affection and compassion that they deserve. they say you learn it best from the best.

i definitely have the world's best parents. surely, with weaknesses of their own, but sufficiently perfect in the eyes of me.