the right, wrong person

We’re all seeking that special person who is right for us. But if you’ve been through enough relationships, you begin to suspect there’s no right person, just different flavors of wrong. Why is this? Because you yourself are wrong in some way, and you seek out partners who are wrong in some complementary way. But it takes a lot of living to grow fully into your own wrongness. And it isn’t until you finally run up against your deepest demons, your unsolvable problems—the ones that make you truly who you are — that we’re ready to find a lifelong mate. Only then do you finally know what you’re looking for. You’re looking for the wrong person. But not just any wrong person: the right wrong person — someone you lovingly gaze upon and think, “This is the problem I want to have. - Galway Kinnell


Seeking for that different flavor of wrong. Is the tricky part. My mother once told me, that people come in packages. They have a set of goods in them, and complementary bads, to them. I guess at this point is for me to no longer find the decent one, no longer the one with most knowledge, the one with most decency, the one with most politeness, because finding the ones based on the goods that they already acquire, makes no room for the bads that they naturally will have.

And that was where I was wrong.

You don't seek for just the good ones. You pray for someone with good character and also has flaws that you will be able to live with. To accept, and to support on when they are at their weakest points.

"what you can't do, i will" she said.

6 powerful words, and not even the longest of marriages can promise you they can say it out without resenting what they've sacrificed and put out for their partner.

It's no longer about finding the right one, because i've learned they are plenty. The right one comes and shows their best behavior at the right time. It's the ones i've discovered their flaws, and know I can live with it, accept it, and take it for the rest of my life without complaining or whining, is the one that i'm looking forward to.

As for now, i'll take my time. It's not so much a priority as I've set other dreams to go on first. Other else can wait. Having said all this, I do believe one day, we'll come back to it. And once we do, it'll be because He has set it to be.

It has always been about giving and taking. Loving someone when they need it the most, being self-less at some point, and you give back.

Ya Rahman, grant me someone I can deal with. Someone I won't love any lesser for their flaws, in fact, someone I will be willing to support in his most weakest moments, and not mind, because I'll know Your love will support and suffice us more than anything. Make this heart as soft as wool when it comes to forgiving others, forgiving him, make me self-less when it comes to loving Your creations knowing You are looking after us even in the most deepest, most difficult times. 

And when everything is in place, I know then that I will be ready.