coffee and tea;

sometimes i amaze myself with the amount of things i have in mind at one go. standing, i can be in both ade and msia at once, remembering, reminding, reminiscing, or just thinking. i fast forward things visualizing what i'll do next. my target for summer school, and my aim for the epic final semester.

ive pretty much picked up things a lot better now. proud of myself when it comes to that department, i knew all i needed was to keep my head in the game, to love what i do, and to keep faithing. blessed with beautiful supportive parents, learnt, listened and observed.

i can only plan so much of what i want to have, the rest i must leave to Him to decide.

i mastered the art of not letting myself be sucked into negativity. to hold strong to my values and to never let anyone bring me down, regardless. ive been brought up in such a blessed surrounding, and i would not ask for anything to be done differently. perfectly arranged, thank you Allah.

i cant wait for 2012 mainly because my brother will be joining me in Ade. and thats the best news ever. ill finally have someone to fool around with, to remind me of home, to be my ultimate self with and to also do normal homey things with. having him around will be like having a big part of home around which is essential. it gives me strength, and motivation to strive better than ever, inshaAllah.

i have been pretty much caught up with things at home, adjusting back to familiarity and zone, it feels so surreal at times i just dont want to let it go, because it just feels right. i missed this kind of giddiness and this sort of quiet happiness i get.

but at the same time, i miss adelaide and its calmness. i miss bus rides and i am already missing classes. uni classes with grn, the crazy assignments, i appreciate them a lot more because i already know how it feels like to stop having all those by being stuck in the whole 8-5pm cycle.

i intend to have the very best and last summer of my uni life and go all out for what is left for me of uni.

coffee with L & B made me realize the kind of people ill never forget. my dose of caramel machiatto gave me a rush of emotions in one sitting. good, good times. almost too much for me to handle but i took it all in. remembering, reminiscing, forgiving and hoping.

tea with ms showed me what life could be if it all worked out the way i want it to be, i gave way to a little sense of doubt to the what ifs. what if things did not work out the way i wanted it to ?

well , theres only one way to find out.