can i share this dance with you ?

remember when i brought up how sometimes, story lines tend to repeat, probably a few minor changes to what comes first, and what stays last, but only characters differ ? and i said that it makes life exciting that way.

well yes, it does. to some extent. and then it stops becoming exciting when issues are thrown in when you least expect them to. the idea now, is to stand up high , kind of push it to the left and say, okay, been here, done this. this is what i should do. act. act. act.

but what if the solution to this is to put both hands up, surrender, because you know so very well how pointless soldiering on will be. what if, because back then you used to be naive and hopeful that things will work out, and became ignorant to this cancer that you carry around, and in the end, you just cant fight it anymore.

never, mess with this.

welcome to a grown up's life. a place where sometimes being too much of an idealist only gets you so far, its high time you stick to reality and learn to toughen up. no one promised it was going to be easy.

truth is, i'm tired of fighting. the last time i fought hard, it didn't turn out so well.

so here's the part where you loosen your grip. and take it, as it goes.

ready ?