moments in between

picture credits to : princerain.da

for the first time, in a very, very long time, im having trouble describing how this feels. not that i was good at it anyway. but it always came down to something. but not this.

because sometimes, somewhere in between, it feels awkward and aberrant. having questions inside me that are left hanging, i find myself fighting against my will. this isn't normal. this difference is supposed to be something good, no ?but what if its level of difference is something intolerable. something too alien to my kind of normalcy that i automatically pick up this habit of, being ignorant.

i'd like to believe issues exists to be resolved. and if one decides to push it to the left, it only grows bigger. if not bigger, it remains as it is - an issue, until attended to.

let me try this one more time.

because there were moments where i felt myself being squeezed with curiosity,but chose not to voice it out. not wanting to change the present so much, as change has really been a bit too friendly nowadays, that it feels strange having too much dose of it.

i get lost in thoughts. regardless of places. but i've learned the art of snapping back to reality way quicker than before. maybe because i no longer walk alone so much. which, is something i miss , and don't miss.

point is, today i caught myself holding back.and this needs major fixing. i just dont know how to.there are so many things i feel like scratching off my list. i dont know if its for the better.

come on princess, we promised when we were to jump in, we'd do it better than the last time.

and that is all that i wanted to say.