and then there were three;

oh my goodness how dusty is it in here? newsflash we have a third boy in the family, and his name is Talha. where do i even begin? i promised myself that this whole blogging thing would work, but alas, life took over, and i have no clue where to even start right now.

so yes, we moved to the uk whilst i was pregnant. i kept it to ourselves this time as it was really nerve wrecking being pregnant in the middle of a pandemic, i didnt want to be overly worried and did not want added stress. well i did at one point wanted to announce it, but with moving in and all that, it went by, and then he was here!

we had my parents over for 7 months and it was lovely. none of them ever stayed with me that long of a duration ever since we got married and had kids so that was a first. my transitioning from 2 to 3 was a lot more gentler than it was from 1 to 2. i dont know if it had to do with managed expectations or what not, but it was a blessing alhamdulillah. 

i dont know if i should even say we are out of the pandemic just yet, the world discovered a new variant of the virus, and thats causing some chaos around the world still with everyone calling for a booster jab. so theres that.

Talha has been a beautiful addition to our family. its amazing watching Hamza really into his role of a big brother. Umar is pretty much cruising, being his normal self, but often times we do realise him struggling with Talha's presence. you see, we're outnumbered now. and i guess at some point one of the boys would feel like the attention is off them, and im sure that in some ways leaves them feeling a certain way. we try our best nevertheless :)

giving birth to Talha here was a meaningful experience. i overall, really loved it. it was the most satisfying birth for me. i was left feeling empowered and so proud of myself. i knew i couldnt ask for an epidural this time. i hated the false hope it gave me when i had it with umar, i prepared myself mentally for the toughest labour ever. and boy it was. it really was. i think all my labours were tough and painful and that i came out of it a different person always. i loved how they gave me full control of my birth, and supported me throughout my labour process, of course there were little hiccups along the way with my iron levels being flagged, but like i said, with experience, i knew which route to take, and to listened to my body, trusted my guts and most importantly believe that Allah swt was in total control of things. 

them 3 just chilling in our living room 

                                                   book reading with the animated youngest :) 

friday usrahs, Talha going for the good stuff ;)

                                     my boys and i , at a park post vaccination (12weeks i think) shot for Talha

                                                            cotswold farm with the boys :)

                                                     one of our fav coffee spot with the boys :) 

anyway we've done so many trips since around the UK since my last posting, i dont know if i should blog about them as well.  i mean, i should! for memories sake! hahaha i need the time though. time is what im lacking. ive got lamb soup on the stove right now, my boys are praying with their abah, and talha is just crawling around them, so theres not much time left.

just wanted to introduce talha to this space. Alhamdulillah , thank you ya Allah for this simple life, a life ive always prayed for and intended since before i even had any of them ( Azhar included ).

ok til next time ( hopefully wont take a year ) haha

salam