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I want to write this down. This instant where my heart is currently feeling so rested, so calm and at peace. I want to have it parked right here, so I could re-read it in future. Probably by then with a little one in my arms, reminded of how blessed I am feeling.

I'm lying down on our bed, resting after our stage one of cooking my mama's famous dendeng recipe for eid. Azhar loves to have it for raya so I made it a point to learn it from mama herself last eid. I feel my little one kicking in me, or perhaps jabbing his way to me. Whatever pleases you my little one. Your dad helped me with some frying today and hes now dragging himself around the house as if he's cooked 10 dishes for 10 families. Haha.

My back hurts and you're definitely growing heavily inside me, and its so amazing feeling all this though at times it gets challenging even to be sitting for far too long.

I loved tonight. Just because your dad and i shared plenty of time together in our little kitchen prepping things together. Talking about life, the future, the present - and how bad the fried onions tasted upon first trial. 

Little,little things. That made me so happy, so at peace. 

I loved it :)