We rarely have long weekends, but when we did - I figured it'd be great to book riding for an hour, to make it worth the drive out. Quite unfortunately, the weather was not friendly. We had strong winds, strong enough to fly me to Houston if it wanted to.
Jokes aside, it was stronger than ever. Scary. However, I turned the day around and took Nz out for brunch to a familiar cafe. It has been a while since I last went. Great coffee, great ambience. I was really just too hungry anyway.
Well life has finally pushed me to this point where I need to make a decision. And as much as I hate doing so, I know I am bound to be here anyway. Hate - is a very strong word. But oh God, how do you come to a decision when thrown choices from all angles?
Blessed I am - quite frankly with the amount of choices. But i've been tossing and turning trying to figure out which way would work best. I'm not entirely sure which road would make the best of me.
But then again, I long to be with my person I love most. Being married to this amazing guy for the past months has slowly taught me what it'd be like down the road. Surely, things will change here and there. And i pray that if change decides to stomp its way upon our path, that it will only be for the better of things.
The track changes a hundred times sometimes, but as long as you know where you're heading, you'll be fine.
I love KB and her ways. For all the times shes been there, watching my every move since I've been here. From telling me you don't want to live a life like that, to all these big bumps i'm facing.
What is our goal ? What do we wish to attain in this life ? What's important to us ?
List it down, and you'll see what needs to be done.
Surely, lillahi ta'ala. For the better of both, and with that, I make this decision, praying, hopefully, it will somehow lead me to where He feels best for both of us.
Come take my hand, and we'll walk this together.
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