trust me, don't do it;

i once read somewhere, " even when they wander far, the person who is meant for you, will always gravitate towards you in the end "

a photo i found in my small box of a laptop. remembering quite vaguely, how at that point of time in my life - my eyes were set on a different direction. i had dreams i wanted to achieve, i had this huge baggage of expectations and past experiences i carried around with me, i was all set and excited to explore life post-uni.

and as months passed by, i noticed how quite vigilantly, i was put to a test that required a giant leap of faith. as adventurous i thought i was - i was still quite the young girl spoilt by familiarity around me. i was forced out of my comfort zone, into a position where i had almost nothing to cling onto.

i experienced what it was like to have my trust in people betrayed. i was so into pursuing my plans, placing my trust in the hands of careless beings, only to see it fall apart. only to find myself hurt halfway through the journey.

heartbreak and i , we're no strangers. i'm probably the Queen of pathetic heartbreaks. it wasn't until the day i noticed how this cycle of pain was purely self-inflicted that i mastered the art of getting back up. its just that this time, it had its own twist.

i was put in a perfect position by Allah swt to get my revenge. how often does that happen to any of us?

being faced with a person who once hurt us - with a perfect position to just hurt them back. would you take it?

" when Allah puts you in a position where you could have your revenge on someone, and you don't take it, the reward is triple-fold. you gain. Allah will reward you for not taking that chance, "

i decided that it was time i let all the extra weight of hatred and revenge go. i knew if i took it, it would only damage me much worst than to the person i intended upon.

so do yourselves a favor. let that grudge go. cut it off, and start fresh.

in the wise words of Sheikh Aley, ' you get what you intent,'

if what we intended for ourselves or the people we surround ourselves with was for Him, and only to be led towards Him, surely - whatever comes our way, would only mean for the better of things.

the best part?

my plan is still on the table, intact, inshaAllah, just needed a little bit of changing in terms of the people involved in it.

Allah always knows whats best for His servants. After all, wasn't He the one who created us all?