i never knew;

i never knew it was too easy to tell the differences between you and them. has a little to do with guts, a little to do with patience, but a lot to do with time.

time heals all wounds. time changes things. time reveals the truth. everything will work its way in time. time will eventually get us there, regardless.

so time to tell me the truth.

how many times had you met a person and judge them straight there and then that one day they are going to screw you over ? how many times do you make friends with people and your gut feelings tell you that this person will mess with your life ?

twice.

friends play an important role in my life. i choose them wisely. and mind you, i have made all kinds of wrongs in choosing them along the way. sifting them layer by layer. because its hard. its just hard to find the real ones in an instant.

i used to beat myself on my stupidity. on how easily i let people in and gave them the power to control my feelings. but not this time.

make mistakes. make poor choices in the friends that you have. pain after pain, betrayal after betrayal, lies after lies, the ones that passes through all that ? - those are the ones worth keeping.

sometimes, you just need to go through a lot of shit in order to appreciate the real ones. but sometimes, you get lucky.

i got lucky once. i got lucky twice. but not thrice, not the one after. but the next one, i will.

i keep my circle small for a reason. it never had to be big in order to guarantee my happiness. just that one is already sufficient, really.

but boy can people disappoint. wow