just a little bit tighter;

i can sense a wave of change is coming my way, but that only makes life , life. doesn't it ? people talk about change and how much they loathe change, but eventually, adapts anyway.

because when there is no power to stop change, you work around change and make it suit you. we are made to be adaptive towards things, regardless of how thick our strong our walls are. we are made with the capability to face our fears and challenges, because He promised that nothing will ever be thrown at us if He knew we were not made for testing.

so everyone is being tested. whether its the girl i saw with the pretty leather jacket coming out of the library while i was walking in, or it could be Lydia, the International Student Officer, facing a hard life. Everyone is facing something, going through something that not everyone may not be aware of.

Its only fair if everyone else is considerate enough to learn to be happy or be mindful of others. yours is not even the worst of all things. and as a reminder to myself, we should all be grateful for every day that is being presented to us.

i remembered the old me upon seeing mum leave the airport to Malaysia, I felt the squeeze in my chest, wondering, worrying whether i was going to make it on my own. could i ? and there was no way i could run through the gates and return with mum, so i had to find it out for myself. i had to bring myself to brave the days ahead of being on my own and away from familiarity. and oh God did everything change.

my perspective, my priorities, my behaviour towards people changed. expectations had to be cast aside once in a while, and here i am, changed. adapted. thickened.

so if you feel like you're at worlds end. have a little faith. hold on a little tighter, you are good enough for yourself, and only you can change your views towards life, and not anyone else.

i intended to start my first day of semester with a bang, but ended up getting lost in uni itself. note to self : plan ahead, and always always alwaaaaaaays bring a bloody map just incase. i chuckled my way through finding myself lost in a very familiar territory. there are some parts of the university i have never been into simply because usually commerce students have their classes or lectures on a few common buildings.

but i guess things had to change at some point, dont it ?

i have a business feasibility plan to hand up to a group mate by tonight. and a few introduction lecture slides to cover before tomorrow.

feels great to be back , i wish everyone else well.