the closure

pic credits to : cold magick helravenheart.da

as you grow older, you tend to realize that things change. the big things, the small things, whatever. they just do. you'll realize that in 3 years down the road, your favorite vanilla ice cream shop will no longer be there, and you then develop a liking for caramel and butter pecans, no longer vanilla.

you evolve, you grow, you explore, you close, you become cautious, you turn a little bitter, you love a lot more. things like that.

one year hasn't been much. a paradigm shift took place. mostly being out of the country, i have developed this new thick skin that enables me to become a tad bit stronger than the year before. being away from your comfort zone may not mean much to some people, but it was a big deal for me. and it still is.

but of course, 10 months away have changed a lot of things. and i'm still trying my best to grasp on things.

in time i learnt that, some things are better left unknown. selfish as that may seem, it only keeps the optimism flowing.

i learnt that sometimes, people don't ask questions not because they don't care, but because their afraid that the truth will hurt them.

favorite people aren't my favorite anymore, and there are things that i wish i could have fixed earlier, but i guess thats not for me to say. after all, everything happens for a reason, no ?

a part of me is ready to be back in adelaide. to score a few more goals, and bring back the scroll. so it all can come to end.

so it all can come to end.

you come to a point in life when you realize not everything is fixable. not everything can be mended and not every hurt can be fully healed. scars will be obvious, memories will haunt you back.there.

this is what the mess does to you. you learn that not every single one of us is perfect. and that everyone makes mistakes and no one is an exception to that rule. the idea is to see through their imperfections and take something good out of it.

they say, there always far, far better things ahead than any you leave behind. so 2010, go already. make way for 2011, hopefully filled with much more love, honesty and trust.

well i guess all i'm asking for is for you to be home.