With heavy eyes, and a heavy heart.

So who am I kidding, it ain't going to happen if I don't make it happen.
Probably those long lengthy posts days are gone,
Disappeared, blank, no where to be found.

Scared I am, with whatever that I have within me.
I swear 57 seconds ago I was sure with what I felt,
And I swear to you again the next 29 seconds I'll get my confidence back in,
That would take another 49 seconds to last before it changes again.
And then the whole cycle repeats itself.

Don't you ever get tired playing with your own feelings and mind?
I push myself so much, to the point that I fear my own capability.

At this point, I feel so tired.
Too tired and all I want to do is just lay back and count stars,
with Marie Digby and John Legend.

Every second of you leaves me hanging.

If you could read my eyes, they'll tell you a whole different story.


You won't know this because I will never say it.
There are some things that can never be spelled out,
only felt by the hearts that can.

I'm getting tired, and this fear is not helping.


Hello world, I have 9 days left. Whats it going to be ?