It's personal.

Our story was never really expected. Well, like all others. Although so, macam drama cerita melayu lah kan, jalan2 tengah kampus, pile of books on my hand terjatuh, I tunduk. And then, you pun sibuk tolong. Kan unexpected?

Something like that. Maybe jalan cerita kita tukar a bit. To make it more dramatic, I tengah menangis kat taman kampus, membawa diri, hati yang duka lara, and then you lalu, you felt like I needed help, so you stepped in. - this is our story. okay?

So you never really did know the story of my life, until today. Why I cried that evening, why I was alone dekat taman kampus that day, semua you tak tahu until today. All you knew was that I needed you. And you sticked through all the way, until today. You gave me confidence, you challenged me to the core, you made me stand up on my own again, never gave up on me, until today.

Alright now enough with the 'until today's.

So kalau orang tanya I, apa dia la yang I suka sangat pasal you, I senyum. Sebab honestly, the answer is too deep for me to unfold. Its beyond love. And that's why I feel sangat tertekan easily when people sometimes take things too lightly on matters of you and I. I get annoyed and irritated when they just easily try to stop us from being together.

Because when the whole world lost their words to calm me down, when everything else failed me back then, you stepped up and offered me your hand. You showed me my inner strength, you made me realize my mental strength, you made sure I realize everything is self-inflicted, and all I had to do was believe in Him, The Almighty, and everything else goes.

When we first started going out together, semua pun bising. You made me cry, they saw bruises on me, they said you are nothing but a waste of time for me. All you ever did was took me away from them. But they didn't know it was part of your plan. ' It takes time ' you said. Little did I know you gave me more hurt to the point of numbness, only to make me stronger the next day. For some reason, you gave me a different kind of pain, you gave me the kind of pain that made me wake up the next day and want more.

It was a beautiful relationship, you and I. It still is right now. Even if the world didn't see it at that point, it didn't matter. All I knew was that you made me stronger, and you made me love myself, you gave me a reason to live each day to the fullest, not forgetting my roots, my ultimate purpose in life, you challenge me to my very best.

We did have our ups and downs. There were times where things got complicated, and I couldn't understand what more you wanted from me. Sometimes I feel you're expectations exceed my capabilities, but thats always the case where you never gave in to me. I was not allowed to give up on you. Neither were you. That mutual feeling made us stronger, and I'm only glad to proudly say it this moment.

Nampak tak kenapa you sangat sangat bermakna in my life? I was at the point of failing. I was a complete mess when you found me. Still, you picked me up. And though times I broke down and was close to letting myself go and give up on life, you tightened your grip on me. And now, though people may never understand our relationship, I vowed to at least give it a try. I want them to know how important you mean to me. How you, besides confiding in Him, helped distract my mind through my darkest days.

Lepas tu you kenal kan I dgn geng2 you. Mostly semuanya okay. Only if they meant serious business. Yang wanted to be more than friends, I malas nak layan. Ada jugak I merajuk dengan you sekejap. And I rasa you pun terasa jugak kan. Yea la, cos I boleh plak nak pilih2 time to be with you or not, bukan apa, I didn't want to be in a caught up situation again. Nasib baik you understood.

I cukup sedih bila orang pandang remeh when it comes to us. They don't understand. If only they knew how much you mean to me. I'm a better person today, sebab you showed me how to be one by just believing in it.

Sekarang baru you tahu kan, I sedih macam mana. Dierang kata, tak apa, dekat Aussie nanti ada je you kat situ. Tapi I tahu mesti tak sama. Theres something about you yang I suka kat sini. Tapi apa kan daya.

Whatever it is, I just want you to know that I'm thankful to have bumped into you. Its not the end of our relationship, for I know it is only the beginning of things. Kalau kat sana tak ada yang macam you, I'll tell them stories of you. How I started to know you, and what it has made me today. Patrick once told me, ' You can tell a person by the way they climb '.

And I agree. Just by the way a person climbs, how they perform a route, how they read routes, how they sequence their problem, you can actually tell. And funny it is, that it is so true. I loved my Poetry Of Movement classes with Patrick.

Sudahlah tu pening2 kepala.

Ni kisah cerita cinta I dengan wall climbing.