Take me back to december
As my days at the office are getting closer to an end, the harder it is to imagine my life without it. Working from 8 - 6 pm can be a lot challenging, what more with this laziness inside me, but i had great company all the time. Apart from the amount of work i had to execute, i had friends keeping me busy, sometimes they were my excuse to shift my thoughts away.
Take me back and keep me there
Now as it ends, and as degree will knock upon my door, life will once again take on a new change. Probably a more drastic one. One that would lead me to the real world and prepare me for the bigger things. New set of people, new drama, new mission, new vision. I'll give myself one year, one year to tolerate with this change, and work towards a much more awaited dream plus challenge i had in me since young - studying abroad.
But there's no use to that, they say
As my days at the office are getting closer to an end, the harder it is to imagine my life without it. Working from 8 - 6 pm can be a lot challenging, what more with this laziness inside me, but i had great company all the time. Apart from the amount of work i had to execute, i had friends keeping me busy, sometimes they were my excuse to shift my thoughts away.
Take me back and keep me there
Now as it ends, and as degree will knock upon my door, life will once again take on a new change. Probably a more drastic one. One that would lead me to the real world and prepare me for the bigger things. New set of people, new drama, new mission, new vision. I'll give myself one year, one year to tolerate with this change, and work towards a much more awaited dream plus challenge i had in me since young - studying abroad.
But there's no use to that, they say
I had a vision a few days back. I was sitting down, somewhere, with a scrap book. One that is filled with images of things i like. For instance,paper cuttings of my favourite colour,favourite flower, that dream home, dream vacation, things like that. Just before university starts, im going to spend time with myself. Ive been busy all these while, too busy to even entertain myself. Probably i invested too much time to distractions that came along my way, and forgot all about the greater things in life that came from the petty little things i often forget about. - myself.
Even if you go back, you wont find him there.
For the past few days, ive learnt that lying gets you no where. And one lie, will lead to another, and then gets worser, which will then lead to more complicated events to come. All i can say is, im glad i kept my mouth shut all the way, and not react to the his/her crazy stories he/she created to make me look bad. Indeed Allah is ever great, the tables have turned, and look around now, see how the truth finally prevails itself.
I want to go back anyway, even if its gonna hurt me the millionth time.
Ohhh boyyy...this is going to be tough. Shifting thoughts has never been this tough before.
Even if you go back, you wont find him there.
For the past few days, ive learnt that lying gets you no where. And one lie, will lead to another, and then gets worser, which will then lead to more complicated events to come. All i can say is, im glad i kept my mouth shut all the way, and not react to the his/her crazy stories he/she created to make me look bad. Indeed Allah is ever great, the tables have turned, and look around now, see how the truth finally prevails itself.
I want to go back anyway, even if its gonna hurt me the millionth time.
Ohhh boyyy...this is going to be tough. Shifting thoughts has never been this tough before.
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