What does it take to have that same flow again? Pain. Ah, I should have known. That has been the way since donkey years anyway. I dare not go through my archives just yet. At this point I'd risk agreeing to myself how foolish and naive I was. But we've all been there. We've all done that.

Have I finally grown out of it ? I'd say yes and no. Yes because I know turning around is definitely a no - no. No because I find myself sometimes scared in diving in again. Not that I'm not given other options besides diving in, just the fear of it when it comes. Fear, did I just say that?

What matters is learning the lesson, knowing what was taught, and understanding the whole concept of it all. Easy.? Not so. As easy as it may be, its rather too complex to be explained. Yes, I was foolish, yes I was naive. No, I'm not actually really scared of the future, in fact, I'm living happily in one right now.

There's only so much that one can do to protect oneself from getting hurt. They say, when you know it, you just do. Things fall in place when you least expect it to. Happiness can be gained when you least expect them to happen.

Just a wee bit contradictory to what was first being said, don't you think ?

Well let me tell you, that came straight out from within. So I have both at the same time, in one moment, existing in the present.

Thank you menstrual cramps, you sure bring the best out of me.